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alwayzmuppetty
19 December 2006 @ 05:51 pm
Good god.... I've been home 3 fucking days and already I can't stand being here... Another 13 days here and I may just go insane... Fuck this...
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
17 August 2006 @ 11:51 pm
-{ Ode To The Nice Girls }-

This is a tribute to the nice girls. These are the girls who are safe. The girls whom guys who have girlfriends are allowed to hang out with because they’re not viewed as a threat. These are the girls who dress respectably . . . they don’t go and get “skank clothes” and parade themselves around, catching the attention of every drooling, testosterone-filled boy on earth. These are the girls who are okay with going to chick-fil-a on a date, hanging out, watching a movie, playing a game, or doing some other low-cost, high-fun form of entertainment. Because after all, it’s really about the quality time that they spend with the guy and not the amount of money that is flowing from his pockets in order to please her every whim and desire (or so he thinks) during the date.

This is in honor of the girls who take the time to ask their guy friends “how’s life?” and to listen carefully when the answer is given. The girls who go out of their way to make cookies or cheer up male friends in distress. Yeah, we know “men are from Mars” and “women are from Venus,” but a simple “thank you” is pretty darn universal.

This goes out to the girls who must sit complacently while their guy friends discuss the “hotness” of the girl at the next table over. They watch as these guys date or lust over each and every self-centered, trashy, insecure, flirtatious, and flighty girl they come into contact with.

When asked, most guys say they would like to date a nice girl. However, when faced with such an opportunity, they claim that “I love her . . .like a little sister” or “there are no such things as nice girls. They’re all evil.” These guys continue to complain about how all girls are “manipulative” and “gossipy” and wonder why in the world they all go to the bathroom at the same time.

But, we must confess, there are guys out there who realize the value of their nice friends who are girls. These are the guys who should be praised for their willingness to go with the flow, hang out, and chill. These guys, however, fail to consider these nice girls as anything more than friends or to step up to the plate and consider them for a Saturday night date or the upcoming dance even though they possess all the qualities that guys claim they are looking for. But, a note to the nice girls. Eventually all guys will (or at least should) realize that they don’t want to have a relationship with a girl who wants all of their money and who will only date them until a guy who is better or more enhancing for her social status comes along. So, until those guys realize what is right in front of them, a word of encouragement to the nice girls. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of being treated like a doormat. In all honesty, you are valuable. Clearly, you possess qualities that cause your guy friends to want to hang out with you. The world needs your encouragement, your willingness to take part in spontaneous activities, your ability to continue to enjoy life even though you watch as countless nasty, malicious female sirens blind the nice guys with their alluring ways. For all of the random, frustrating, and seemingly non-sensical things you tolerate, don’t lose hope. Nice guys do exist and will someday realize that nice girls, who are not evil, exist as well.

Fear not, your day will come. And perhaps your prince will too.
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
03 August 2006 @ 11:34 pm
I don't want to leave...

I'm scared...

What the hell have I gotten myself into!?
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
30 May 2006 @ 01:03 am
I've come to grips with the fact that I have no idea what I want anymore...

I've spent the last 4 years working hard in school and out to make myself as good as I can be. But now, what is there to show for it all? A diploma? I could have easily gotten into Colorado State without having to suffer through the IB curriculum so why bother?

Every day for a long time now all I've wanted is someone... I had it a long time ago and I never realized how good I had it until it was gone. Now, I sit here and I wonder what it would be like to have someone to turn to when I need to, someone to talk to before I go to sleep, someone to think of when I wake up in the morning, someone to make getting up and going out worth it.

Don't get me wrong, I adore every friend I have and could never have done half of what I have without them. But I'm a highly sensual person. I'm independently dependent. I want to feel the security of someone really caring about me and yet I know theres no way I can have it now.

Even if I were to meet someone amazing tomorrow, where could it go? In two and a half months I'm moving 1700 miles away. No relationship could withstand that.

Unfortunately this thought is what makes me crave a relationship more. I don't want meaningless hook ups, I don't want booty calls at 3 am. I want someone who truly cares. Someone to star gaze with, to take midnight walks with, to do the most random spontaneous things with because we both just want to be with each other no matter what.

I kick myself every time I crave it but I can't help it. I know I rely to much on others to make me feel as if I'm worth something. I'm sure that is where this craving originates; from the feeling I need someone to really care for me to make me feel as if I am actually real and useful. It's sad I know and if I could stop myself I would.

So this summer looks like another one of pointless parties with people I'll probably never see again and once more I'll spend it alone meeting guys who'll use me and drop me as always.

Please save me from this shitty future... ugh
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
07 May 2006 @ 01:37 am
Baby lock the door and turn the light down low
Put some music on that's soft and slow
Baby we ain't got no place to go
I hope you understand

I’ve been thinking 'bout this all day long
Never felt a feeling quite this strong
I can't believe how much it turns me on
Just to be your man

There's no hurry
Don't you worry
We can take out time
Come a little closer
Lets go over
What i had in mind

Baby lock the door and turn the light down low
Put some music on that's soft and slow
Baby we ain't got no place to go
I hope you understand

I’ve been thinking 'bout this all day long
Never felt a feeling quite this strong
I can't believe how much it turns me on
Just to be your man

Ain't nobody ever love nobody
The way that i love you
We're alone now
You don't how
Long I’ve wanted to

Lock the door and turn the light down low
Put some music on that's soft and slow
Baby we ain't got no place to go
I hope you understand

I’ve been thinking bout this all day long
never felt a feeling that was quite this strong
I can't believe how much it turns me on
Just to be your man
I Can't believe how much it turns me on
Just to be your man


WOW...
 
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
05 May 2006 @ 01:57 am
It's almost over...

WIS is almost history for me...

It's a little scary...

And yet...

Colorado...

August 17th...

I start again...

This time, it will be amazing...
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
16 April 2006 @ 01:50 am
Wow...

I just saw my first professional rodeo ever...

Bull riding is terrifying... One guy went to the hosipital, another broke his arm and probably went to the hospital, one got stepped on in the chest and just about all of them went home limping tonight! I can't understand why these people keep going back and doing it again! And then bull FIGHTING now THAT is scary... The first 3 of 4 weren't too bad, they got out of the way of the horns for the most part but the last guy... It was pretty cool, the first charge by the bull he jumped up and stepped on its forehead and then its back and dropped down behind it, it was kinda like the matrix haha. Then he tried again but stumbled on the landing and fell down and the bull came back quickly before he had time to get up fully, it hooked him on its horns and flipped him up in the air. He must hqave gone... geez... like 14 feet up in the air?!? it was SO painful to watch!

So yeah, I doubt you'll catch me at any rodeos anytime soon!!!!

Anywho, I'm in Colorado again seeing colorado state. I'm 100% sure I'll be here in the fall, it's awesome! Visited the equine center this morning, it's awesome! The lady that gave us the tour was so amazing she was possibility the nicest person I have ever met. She was so helpful and had so many great things to say.

Other that that, went up into the foothills of the rockys after the tour and saw "horsetooth resevoir". It's gorgeous up there, unfortunately there were also like 65 mph winds up there!

Anywho, it's late, must sleep.
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
11 April 2006 @ 07:14 pm
Wow.... 5 days of highschool left... ever...

how...

great!
 
 
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: John Mayer - Split Screen Sadness
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
24 March 2006 @ 11:42 pm
I'm sick of being the one making the effort to drive to see people... I drive so far to hang out with friends and never get a thanks or anything... People never drive that far to see me... So why should I bother? I'm sick of being the one that tries so hard...
 
 
alwayzmuppetty
22 March 2006 @ 07:42 pm
If anyone is looking for me 6 months from now I'll be at Colorado State! I LOVE it there... its so amazing...

Oh and as a sucky note, Boston College rejected me, those bastards!

But yeah Colorado was so gorgeous and super. I fell in love and hey.... talk about plenty of hot snowboarders to choose from! muahaha...

Now all I need to do is learn to ski/ snowboard...